march 14, 2023

im PISSED OFF and i cant stop listening to swans and im PISSED OFF . fuming red faced steam coming out of ears. i hate everything so much like its so stupid. this won't devolve into vent post but im so mad all the time. & i keep listening to soundtracks for the blind and its making me feel Worse. && im pissed off. and sometimes i think about what if someone found my secret page on here and that would be bad. today i watched short films. & i got an appointment for t but im not as excited as i should be bc its going to be so awkward here. and im pissed off

and i miss thom really bad. i think about him every day. i saw someone with the same haircut the other day and almost cried. i think that;s sad. whatever. is this journaling? is this blogging? i always forget i have it. i get too lazy to write the code for the style which is why, if you're viewing this as black text on white background, i havent done it yet or i forgot.

its my blog and i can say anything. i miss him i wish he was my mom. sighhhh i should be studying for college or something isn't that what other people my age do? i dunno. i dunno. i dunno. will the world end soon? i dont particularly care, i think its funny when the stock market crashes. the banks or whatever the economy the markets i dooooont care. is this like a time capsule. will i read this in 5 years and throwup